Words cannot describe how incredibly unhappy I am at "the real job". It is not a profession of choice, it is a profession of necessity to provide for my family. But I have been with this particular company for 14 years now and it is SO time for me to move on. Not to another profession, no this is all I have ever done, but to another company, better surroundings, better benefits, better pay. These last few weeks have really been difficult for me. I cried three times. One time in particular on my way back to work from lunch. I just drove, tears rolling down my face, the thought of going back to work unbearable, so I began my talk with God.
"God, I have been so SO patient, haven't I been patient? And I will continue to be patient for as long as you ask me to be. (Everything in Your time) I know it in my heart and you know what's in my heart so since we both know, do you really need to continue to test me in the patience department? Haven't I passed the test? Please God PLEASE I feel I am going to break. PS I love you"
Friday, I received word that I have an interview for next week with the company I have been trying to get an interview with for 7 months now. THANK YOU GOD!!!
PS. still love you